My first blog post
Almost five years ago, I noticed a change in me. I felt exhausted 24/7, but wasn’t a 24 hour party person. I was constantly thirsty, so much so that I would manage to get through about four litres of water, or fizzy drinks, or whatever else I could find, between the time I went to bed and the time I woke. I was aware of the symptoms of diabetes, so, when my mum finally made an appointment with my GP, I went along suspecting, without ever really expecting, a diagnosis of Type 1 Diabetes.
I spent a week in hospital, being shown how to inject insulin and monitor my blood sugar levels, and I went straight back to my college course in Cork, Ireland, determined not to be slowed down by diabetes. For the first year or so, I slipped easily into a routine of dealing with things and I wondered what all the fuss was about. In August of the same year, I moved to Edinburgh, where I still live now, to start a university course in Journalism.
I thought things would get easier, but as it turns out, the more time passes, the harder I’ve found it to stay in control of my diabetes. For a while now, I’ve felt more like my diabetes is controlling me, when ideally it should be the other way around. I find getting the balance really difficult, trying to take enough insulin to keep my blood sugars under control while simultaneously trying desperately to avoid the dreaded hypo. What’s more, I work in a busy café, on my feet all day, with erratic breaks and long shifts, making hypos a more common occurrence than I would like.
So, sick of struggling and feeling more and more disillusioned, I have started to seek out some extra help with things and own my diabetes! I am visiting a dietician and diabetic specialist nurse frequently, and am finding the regular point of contact more motivating and so I’m finally seeing some results. It’s just been a few months now, and already they’ve said they can see a change in me. The person sitting in front of them is no longer a fatigued, frustrated and despairing young woman, but someone much more upbeat, positive and determined to continue to change for the better. I finally feel like I’m in the driving seat, like I’m finally in control, and like I might actually reach my destination after spending so long feeling lost.