For we are all forgetful sometimes, diabetics AND non-diabetics – by Zoe Morris
Ok, no biggy right? It happens.. Or so I thought.
Until I tested in front of a non-diabetic and they heard my reading: 21.9 mmol.
“Oh you forgot your insulin again?! Zoeeeee!! Tut tut.” This person is very close to me and knows my condition better than most. And, although he probably didn’t mean any harm by his remarks, it hit home.
I was being judged for not injecting.
Now, I know he’ll be reading this and will completely deny that fact which I know deep down is probably true, but at that moment, I felt like I was and that’s how it came across. I brushed if off at the time but shortly after it made me think.
I know he cares a hell of a lot about me and that comment was said with genuine concern but it’s hard to explain how difficult it can be at times.
We all know how important it is for our health to keep on top of our injections and our blood sugar levels. It’s easy to say to a diabetic, you need to do this and you need to do that. I mean, we all know what we’ve got to do but sometimes certain aspects just tend to slip our minds and we all know how easy it is to tell others what to do, until it’s us having to do it, right?
For me, becoming a Type 1 Diabetic has been a total change of lifestyle. I haven’t injected before meals for over 30 years. That’s a bloody long time and then to have to suddenly start doing it constantly, well, I’ll hold my hands up say ‘Sometimes I just forget!!’
I’m not perfect. I have blips and moments of mental black out I guess as much as the next person. That’s life in general thought, isn’t it? I mean, non-diabetics can forget to take the rubbish out or to change the empty toilet roll in the bathroom. These tiny moments are just a part of life and I guess me forgetting my insulin at times is just another one to add to the list.
Ok yes, ours is probably more life threatening then a missing toilet roll but you get my drift!
Now, I know deep down he wasn’t really judging me like I said, but it’s hard to explain sometimes how it feels when someone says stuff like that to you.
I know most people mean no harm and actually are trying to mean well but it just comes across sometimes I guess as a criticism.
Being a diabetic and injecting up to 7-8 times a day (worst case) is hard and I guess it’s also hard for non-diabetics to think that we can just simply ‘forget’.
Trying to be normal
For me though, I guess it’s just a diabetic trying to be ‘normal.’ Like everyone else in a way. The non-diabetics I mean. And although I don’t do if on purpose, I guess somewhere in the back of my tiny little mind, that’s exactly what I’m trying to do. Be normal. Trying to go back to my life before DKA and my terrifying diagnosis.
I don’t like making a scene or trying to make out like I’m different to everyone else for being a diabetic. I just want to fit in and I guess that short tiny little blip is one of those times where I do forget and go back to a normal society I guess. Without the funny looks or the whispering comments whilst trying to sneak another injection in before starting a meal. Without having to constantly remember to test my blood sugar levels before I start eating. Without having to worry about the amount of carbs I am about to consume.
So yes, sometimes us diabetics do happen to forget we are diabetics!
Don’t ask me how, because trust me, there are many other moments when I wish I could do just that. But, it’s a random act which we don’t do on purpose. I guess it’s just life passing us by.
So, please, to all of the non-diabetics out there, the next time a diabetic mentions to you that they so happened to forget their injection or to do their background dose, please don’t criticise them or have a go. Just reassure them that we all forget things in life and although it was only one injection, we will have many more to do unfortunately for the rest of our lives. It’s about accepting it, refocusing and moving on.
We can only do the best we can.
For we are all forgetful sometimes, diabetics AND non-diabetics!