Wonder Woman I am not! by Jenny Foster
The realisation of this time span hit me this morning when I was kicking myself for getting down in the dumps that Ewan’s new insulin regime hasn’t been an over-night success – yes a whole new life could have been created since his diagnosis but I have to keep reminding myself that in the life of someone with diabetes, we are still at the morning sickness and not-yet-looking-pregnant, just fat stage!
Everyone out there in cyber diabetes world must have had many moments like this in their life. Like us, you could have had a change of regime or maybe you have had a bigger change like from injections to a pump or perhaps, it’s just been a tweak in diet or exercise. We’ve all done it, pinned all our hopes on this change making an instant improvement in our control and our life and more often than not we’ve been met with immediate disappointment. When will we all learn not to build our hopes up?
After 8 months of battling with the twice daily regime, balancing Ewan’s carb intake with his coeliac disease and his insulin mix, we finally took the plunge to change his regime to basil/bolus, MDI, multi-injection (whatever you want to call it!) 5 days ago.
With 2 weeks of Easter holidays ahead of us and being a pretty intelligent, pro-active and sensible lady, I thought I would crack it straight away and that we would have days of amazing control from the off-set, but how wrong I was. His control is still unstable and now he is injecting 4 or 5 times a day instead of just 3. Have I made a mistake making this change?
Deep down I know that immediate successful control was a totally unrealistic expectation but sometimes I think I am Wonder Woman, that I can successfully tackle anything and always be in control. Those Wonder Woman moments do ‘wonders’ (see what I did there!) for my determination and commitment to dealing with Ewan’s diabetes but when reality hits, those moments do not do a lot for my confidence!
I have to stop striving for super hero style perfection and be satisfied instead with near perfection and a happy little boy.